..yeah !! finally..

   finally got new face to my blog...huhu...so happieee!!! =) ...very nice is it??... ^^

   lol....after quite sometime of trying,searching..i finally got the layout tat i want..

..pity that girl..

  i got this 1 frens tat used other gurl just to get other gurl..stupid rite?? ...doesn't he realise wat he did was so wrong n stupid at d same time..doesn't he knows tat d onli reason tat gurl (fake gf) did it just b'cos she believe she had a chance wit him..poor that gurl... *my status in fb...hehe ^^

  hate it when i think about it, and the fact tat he just ignored that gurl when he got the gurl tat he want..it pissed me off!!  ...i really want to ask him (actually mad at him) ..how could he done such things..but i'm so scared, scared tat he might not befriend with me anymore T_T ...n i miss talking to him nowadays....huhu (xposure brani...kahkah XD)

 n btw there is this 1 things that pissed me off..the fact that i dunno what is really happening!!...huh!! ...he totally ignored me nowadays..which i'm fine though not that i don't have other friends rite??...really hoping that someday got to know what is really happening..(yeah rite..like that is going to happen..T_T)

 hope tat gurl is fine nows..she seems to have a lot of 'peminat' which i'm sure is 100 million better than that guy.. hope she'll be in love n not to be hurt anymore..pity her..

 *that's all from now..kinda bored tell u guys this story coz i can't really tell out d details..huh!! >_<"'

..hurmm..

..hurmm..pa aku nak post ek...

  xde benda ku nak post actually...ku mok cita psl apa ek..ermm..sjk kebelakangan nie,aku slalu jer naik angin..dlm erti kata len [marah] ...ermmm..sapa yg wat ku mrh..kite rahsia kan k... i'm not that evil to post that person name here n let everyone know..hmmmp! i wish i can though.. =="'

  ape yg wat ku mrh...die sakitkan ati ku... aku x ingat arr pnah x aku story kat korang yg aku nie camne time marah2 nih... ok let's me tell u bout me [part marah2 jer..jgn isau x lame..hikhik^^]

  aku..time owg kaco2 nak cr pasal,aku x bape nak lyn mula2..bagiku cukup kalau ku ignore kan saje..[owg mcm tu yg slalu wat owg marah xyah dlayan nanti makin meroyan >_<""]  ...tapi yg wat ku x tahan bila owg makin kaco n pastu sakitkan ati..haaa!! yg tu aku xleh tahan sory k !!

lagi satu..aku benci n mudah naik angin dgn sendirinya bila owg tu xreti bhs or kuat merimaskan aku..aku x ske owg mcm tu... skali ku dah padah cukup la...xyah nak ku xplen berkali2..huh!! aku xske!!  ..dah la pastu x tau nak pujuk balik..haiz..makin la ku marah..apa ko ingat amarah ni boleh ilang ngan sendirinya ka?? ..owg len mungkin p aku x!

x leh ke ko luangkan masa ambik ati ku balik..sejuk kan balik benda yg ko da panaskan...yalah aku tau ku sapa..  korang yg baca nie genti pikir.."mak ai ngegeh nyer budak nih,nak dipujuk g".....haha!! ngeeee~

 lg satu aku kalau dah marah kat seseorg..susah aku nak trima n maafkan die balik...ingat ku time sekolah rendah [ perangai dibawa dr kecik g..haha ] yer..time tu skolah rendah, darjah 6..aku bergaduh ngan best friend ku...tau bapa lama kami x bertegur sapa...3 tahun lebih..hurmm..bukan nyer owg len tu bestfriend ku sndr pun sampai 3 tahun..korang bayang kan lah kalau owg tu owg biasa kawan mcm tu jer..mmg aku xkan layan arr seumur hidup..ngeee~ kisah ku an bestie tu..jgn risau we're back together as bestfriend..aku mmg sayang sangat kat die..!!! ..BFF.. 

  

 haa!!..back to were we started..psl owg yg tgh sakit kan ati ku skrg..aku msh x bri respon kat die..msj die aku x layan..i don't care if u want to be mad or completely ignore me afterwards..u hurts me already.. n that's enough for me to hate u [ maybe for a while la..hehe,i'm not that mean ok.. ]

 yah..that's all i got to say this time..later we'll meet again..geez i hope by that time i'm over with this things..hurts me a lot ='(

 

 *..hate it when i don't have anythings to post on my blog n end up completely ridiculous or melalut bak kate owg melayu..heeee XD ..

..my feeling towards u..

..u always heard..

i miss u   ...from me
i need u   ...from me
i want u   ...from me
i love u   ...from me

but...

..i never heard..
me too   ...from u

*this taken from a page tat i create on fb..
huhu..if sum1 tat is very analitical read this..he/she might know which page it is..
yaii .. >_<"'

selfdoubt...

  i always have doubt about myself..
  about what to say...
  what to do..
  what to react..
  what to think..
  what to feel..
  what to ask..
  what to answer..
  when those kind of things arrive..
  all those words to say..
  all those act to do..
  all those thought that came..
  all those feeling that i hide..
  all those question i'm dying to ask..
  all those answer that i need to hear..
  i don't know..
  i don't know..
  those doubt came..
  and as for result..
  i'm hurting myself ..
  what i did was merely taking care of others
  people feeling..
  and my feeling itself..
  i don't want to get hurt..
  because it hurt a lots..
  and when i'm hurt..
  i doubt that i can rise again..
  so pliss..
  don't hurt me..

  ='(
 

hapie mode =)

   yeeaa....he didn't ignore me!!!....i'm    glad  =)


      u make me hapie..
      whether u noe it or not..
      we should be hapie..
      tat's what i said from d start..
      i am soo hapie..
      knowing u r d one..
      tat i want for d rest of my day..
                
                         *happy-nevershoutnever!*
   
      i love tat song soo much!!
      n i love him soo much!!
     
hope he noe tat..he did~~ =(but ignore my feeling toward him..but nevermind =)...still like/love him!!...hikhik ^^...

lama suda...hehe ^^

....hehe...ku mulakan blog ngan ketawa tersenggeh2 *tul  ke spell nih??
     uik lama bnar da ku c msk blogspot towk,mls da juak dtg...mok tell a story bkn nyer senang,mok amik ati owg g ngan cr penulisan,ku towk pun bkn nyer xpert part karang2 towk..huuhuu >_<""
     dolok bkn main g mok b'blogi,mok curahkan asa ati la tek...p???...hehehe *tersenggeh2 g ...ntah la asa mcm cda ja bnda ku mok story,idup ku towk bkn nyer hype sngat pown...dlm erti kata len..ku syok sndr...hehe,bkn syok sndr nok slalu kta padah ya p syok sndr bg mksd aku ialah..ku c kisah ar ngan khidupan ku o owg len..ish!!da juak ku kisah ngan idup ku especially yg da kaitan ngan future ku..huhu,ckp part future2 tok takoot weyy!! takoot sngt >_<""
      stat balit..mksd ku tek aku c kisah sngt ngan flow of my everyday life...i'll just go wit d flow..^^..plus ku slalu b'angan2 o owg puth pdh pipedream *heran aku knak d pdh pipedream owh...cam cda kena mgena ja pipe ngan mimpi...hikhik ...angan2 ku ya cda la kedak mat jenin ya...ada la juak p c slalu k...stress mun klalu byk pkr...
      sigi g ku mok pdh...ermmm pa tek ah?? c ingat da ku..huhu..klak ku pkr lok...owhhhh ya...^^
      kblkgn towk slalu ja jeles tanga owg..ish!!.. >_<""...menchik ku mun pkr..p jeles ku ya cda nok blh melarat2 k..ku jeles sbb...c mok eh pdh ctowk..hehe
ku arap bebena life ku pat jd kdk downg punya life..n bila bende cam 2 blaku..i owez blame myself..i hate it when tat happen ><"
      still.. like i said..my everyday life is normal + simple..*ishh..mlalut la plak,kowang phm c pa ku pdh ctowk,soie mun ktk asa sia2 ja bc blog tok.. =( ...p ku ikhlas la tulis semua tok k...^^ ya jak lah ku mok pdah,klak mun ajin ku dtg ctowk blit...hehe..mun hehe ya kuar tau eh ktakowg pa ku polah ya..haha tersenggeh2... XD..

  *arap len kali ajin2 ku dtg ctowk,sian...da byk da ku tanga spider web lam towk.. =)

not in da mood...

   huh!! yesterday got interview for nursing,1st there's was exam...quite easy...hehe yes o no question (mmg easy pown..) then the interview...fuh~~those peoples is scary,i have my confident to face them n answer each question they ask,but then my confident overpower me n i talk nonsense n rubbish things...hahahaha
   i really hope i got chosen,but then again dunno if i'm goin there if accepted...right now hoping that i will be shortlisted...hoho,they ask me current event n i dun do any homework regarding that topic...huhu hentam sajalah....haha XD
   then i went to pasar wit my 2 frens...balik sampai kul 6:30,dtg umah je ari dah malam...penat kaki sangat penat!!
   then i heard about that dreadful news (to me it was dreadful k..)..at first decided to just went sleep without even eating my meal...so tired that day~but there's mesej from my lil sis..owh~~~ i'm in shock+sad =(
    from then,start my crying mode:='(
    it was seriously silly of me to cry..but i can't help it,no...seriously i CAN'T..those tears just came...it was 10:15 pm at that moment,still early though..dunno when i feel asleep but i'm sure i cried to sleep.. ='(
    at 2:00 am,suddenly wake up n i instantly thought bout him...tat hurt =( ...then i cry again..it was not heavy as b4 (crying part) but tears did stream down my cheek..again i thought it was a fool of me to cry~~ trying to sleep but can't so i went outside to drink some nice cold juice..it help me a bit...feelin more refresh i went back to my room...but couldn't fall asleep that fast..so what did i do?? thinking bout him~~ dunno when did i fall asleep but the next day i woke up late..8:35 am,nid to go to work at 9:30....aiyo,suddenly wake up n went ASAP to the bath room...huhu...(mandi pown x bersih sngt...haha)
    thank god...manage go to work at 9:15 am...hehe
    rite now wokin n still feelin tired...
    hmmmm...things ok for me now...dun want to think bout him although those thought did came across my mind,trying my best to let it go away..
    n to my best fren,sory ignore ur msg last nite,but u know me rite~~i would willingly share ur pain,but my pain...let me myself hv it~~tnx anyway~~

    * i shed tears to show that the pain is not illusive...

...sad story 2 me..

       yesterday one of my close friend lost his love one...it sad~~ because i exactly know he  feel,what had happened to him,make me think back what happened to me before...
      
      didn't see what he saw
      but i surely feel what he felt
     
      he understand that quite sound
      so did i
      he knows what lies ahead
      so did i
      he's expecting those lonely moment
      so had i
      we both have been there

      missing those moment
      and there's only memories left
      that stay behind..